seredipity in the underpass...

Still basking in the afterglow of the serendipitous event yesterday… today is not so bad either if not for ripping my good ole mossimo jean Capri.. dang!!! This is one of my favorite pairs pa naman. Oh dear!!!

I’m supposed to go to the gym tonite but with the ripped jeans and all???nahhh, I’ll just swing by tomorrow. Anyway, I plan to go there this Friday too. Need time alone. Naks…I’ll see if I can do an hour in the morning before my dream stint.

I had a moment awhile back when Miss J stepped into the booth and said I’ve been harboring all this longing and feelings for six friggin long years. But, but, but… I think twas just a cosmic anomaly. They insist we’re kindred spirits. I dunno though. Doesn’t feel like it. Never did. But I wouldn’t say it wouldn’t…hmmmh.

I miss the Island boy. He emailed me Monday to tell me that I look damn beautiful…yeah right. Like that’s what I wanna hear from him. Geez…

Anyway, distraught as I may, I am looking forward to the next weekend. My friend Rachelle’s treating us to a day of relaxation while me and Almawill have to take care of the games—something I suggested to take our get-togethers to the next level. I mean after how many sleep-overs, we surely could use something different… soooooooooo, in come the games…hehehehe… I am such a genius!!! Bwehehehehe..

Am I happy??? Just a random thought that slipped thru my mind while writing this entry… well, I am lucky and for that I have to be. That’s my answer for now. I do welcome change much better these days than before. Things are getting better if I may say so. I could also say that I guess I’m growing up too.

a welcome twist of fate...

John was right in saying, it doesn’t just happen in the movies. It feels surreal but the heavens have been looking out for me… hahahaha…

A damsel in distress and at the end of the tunnel is the prince in a shining white armor…er, corolla??? Hahahaha…

I thought I’d be stuck for as long as it takes manong cabbie to get the battery up and running… but lo and behold my phone rang and gad, twas of all people, my friend John. At first, I even hesitated to answer his question regarding my whereabouts… but hell, okey I’m stuck in a cab… then he went on to say he saw me and he’d be happy to drive me to ortigas.. whoaaaa???? Yup. I would have to walk up the underpass though which to my thinking, wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be but before I went even further a bunch of nice guys in ambulance gave me a lift up and brought me near John’s car. Haaaahhh…must’ve done something good to still deserve something like this..hehehehe…Imagine being in the middle of Edsa???what are the chances of a friend whom you haven’t seen for sometime, passing thru the same stretch at the same time with you on route to the same destination??? Oh man!!! Was it fate??? Could it be??? Hahahaha…

As far as I’m concerned, I am uber happy..smiling from ear to ear…oh man… the universe has conspired to get us together. .missed him for quite sometime… fresh from his birthday too... he’ll forever be in that special place…nakss… basta, I’m happy... and I like it!!!

the scope of horo...

Do you believe in horoscopes? Are you superstitious enough to actually think that our day to day dealings with things have already been written? That our character and perhaps aptitude have a lot to do with the incline and alignment of celestial bodies on the day of our birth? Do you share the same traits with those who share the same sign with you?

I was born January 10, and that makes me a Capricorn. So what are the most common traits of those born between December 22 til January 19? Well perhaps famous Capricorns like Muhammad Ali, Sir Isaac Newton even Joan of Arc could most likely give you an idea on how we Caps are…

In one website, I just broke into laughter when I saw just how much of a Capricorn I am…

Let’s see…

Good organizational skills ,Neat & tidy Practical
Realistic, Strong work ethic, Materialistic tendencies, Conventional, Respects authority, Egotism, Cruel taskmaster, Servility, Excessive perfectionism

Likes...
• Simple food
• Antiques
• History
• Responsibility
• Not being pressured
• Unconditional love
• Privacy
• Elitism
• Family
Dislikes...
• Untidiness
• Disorder
• Being teased
• Familiarity
• Surprises
• New ideas & paths
• Loneliness
• Being useless
• Public embarrassment
It’s amazing how it all fits the bill. In fact, my daily dose of horoscope from friendster ( which is really the reason why I get to check my account everyday—it’s just the horoscope folks!) --- read something like this:

If your ship encounters choppy waters, be ready to plug up any holes and move on.
In Detail
For a while now, you've been sailing along nicely and capably navigating the most threatening waters ... you should be proud of how you've handled yourself recently. This pride will continue to carry you onward, but you should be on the lookout for a few obstacles. If your ship encounters especially choppy waters, you may just spring an emotional leak. You will have to plug the hole for now -- you can deal with a more substantial repair once you're in a safe harbor.
I think it’s kinna freaky because it might be referring to my driving manually. I’ve been driving for the past 6 days… 5 of which in Edsa and 1 going Nova…Can I just be proud of my achievement? Hehehehehe… Somehow I have managed to deal with my fear. And my braking skills are absolutely smooth and suave, as attested by my dad who freaked out about several times just this morning. Hahahaha.. Traffic’s kinna bad today- it’s a Friday and then the roads are even wet. So I was extra careful. But I enjoyed it. Immensely. I hope to be really good at driving before the year ends.

I wish my Gemini baby could see just how I am doing these days. But he’s ignoring me. Well not exactly, but he’s not his usual self. I hate it when he’s all quiet. Damn…

The day is still young, but I am already looking forward to my luck tomorrow…hehehehe…

Carpe diem, hunny!!!

italics and bold letters

For the few of us who like getting in touch with people from our past, most recent or otherwise, we can thank Friendster for somehow bridging the gap. But not only does it do a great job in reuniting us with old flings and friends, it also is the harbinger of news—good or bad they may be.

Today, as I was scanning through the roster of friends who updated their account, I came across this person who introduced me to Mr. A…

I just found out that A is getting married soon. Now who’s A by the way???

I think it was in 2000 or 2001 when LNDJ met sister D. D was great. And she would tirelessly burn the phonelines just to get through and speak to me. At first, she went under a different name and pretended that she knew some guy who has a huge crush on Miss Late-night DJ. That was Mr. A… A wooed LNDJ with all his “cuteness” and might… LNDJ was friendly enough to accept whatever, but does not expect anything to really prosper. A continued to be sweet, even in his intoxication. Yes, he would call LNDJ even if he’s dead drunk. At one point, even proposing to her. Ofcourse LNDJ was more than that. He was a handsome younger man. Something that LNDJ would want but has accepted will never have. Looking back, LNDJ does not regret having to pass up on whatever was growing. She has serious issues and self-image took up so much space in her heart and her mind.

A was a nice guy. Good demeanor and all … not to mention, really good looking. This is the very thing that LNDJ was all too concerned about… His feelings for her were just too good to be true. So she held back, kept her distance and played cool.

Naturally, A got the message. I failed to mention A’s sensitivities are quite remarkable . So, there.. .the falling out led to forgetting. Something that was just already beyond LNDJ.

Today, LNDJ celebrates the joy of friendship with A; twas quite brief but nonetheless very meaningful. Something that will forever be in the books.

To A and your new wife… a blissful and happy life together. Til we meet again…

5 to Q

Legendary rock group the Clash had a song that I could so relate to at this point. Can you guess the song? Well, before this entry ends I’m sure you’d be singing along with me…hehehe..

What we know we need to do is sometimes the hardest thing to actually do.
The word QUIT speaks to me. Loudly, almost deafening and so much annoying. When do we give in? When do we embrace it? When do we welcome it?

Let’s see, I have been lurking around the net tryna find answers. Maybe reduce the reasoning for easier consumption. And this is what I’ve gathered from Yahoo Finance’s David Bach, author to the column, The Automatic Millionaire.
See, this dilemma was borne out of today’s frustration. Er, prolly aggravated by my frustration for the day…

I just sat here and thought, it’s been six friggin long years… do I still have a tinge of excitement left in me? Is it time to rethink, just like David said, about what I do or where I do it??? Tell tale signs are here. Let’s try to digest them for what they’re worth. Hope you are with me… all up to you if you’re putting a check or crossing it out…

1. You truly hate what you do.
That’s right. It all begins with the simple premise that if you hate what you do, it only follows that if you totally dislike what you do, you should already be able to say when you will quit the job.....we can do away with the reasons. What’s more important is that we already set a date. Procrastination is always a foe. Even if life is said to be short, I couldn’t agree more with Mr. Bach in saying that doing something that you hate would only make it seem very long and very miserable…


Proclaiming his dedication to teaching others how to be smarter with their money David believes that money frees people to live great lives. Based on his experience, for many people, “the goal of setting aside six months' worth of expenses” is often enough to free them from a job they hate.
But it can often take even less than that. He reiterates “sometimes, you simply need to quit your job before everything is perfect, because life is worth more than money”.

2. You asked for a raise and the answer was "no."
If you can sing with Donna Summer here, and you’re truly working hard for the munny… working your butt off week after week, month after month, and year after year, and you're not getting raises or growing your income, hello, skip the bull-- something is wrong. You can always try to rationalize the situation with all your might, or you—yes YOU can do something about it.
Think about this: Even if you get just the national average annual raise which is about a little less than 4 percent, in five years you will have increased your income by over 20 percent. We all could use these increases to be able to keep our head above water financially. It goes without saying that increase in the cost of gas alone requires that you earn a raise.
However -- and this is all too important -- you HAVE TO EARN it. I'm not talking about taking the attitude "give me a raise because of inflation." That will get you nowhere.

3. You work for a company you don't respect.
I don’t know what else could be more amazing a sign you’re waiting for than the fact that you’re not being paid well and not getting raises, and on top of that you don't respect the company where you spend 40 hours or more a week.
So let’s be honest with ourselves right now: Do we still respect the company we work for? Do we still like what it stands for? Do we still like what it does? Does it even care about us and the customers? Does it have a plan for the future, or is it living in the past? A simple yes can make all the difference much as a no can spell QUIT in bold bright letters.


4. You work for a company that doesn't respect you.
Respect is absolute. And we all need it to go live a fruitful life. It’s sad but true that not all companies are created equal. There will always bad, good, and great companies, and they all treat their people in radically different ways.
Try asking again: Does your company respect you? We pretty much know the answer, don't we?

5. You're bored to death and not challenged.
When the element of time is involved, change is inevitable and this prolly is the reason why it’s so hard to recognize that it’s time to G-O when you’re irritatingly bored to death and not challenged. Bach says, you may be one promotion away from new opportunities, but things can be pretty brutal if you've been bored out of your mind for years.

It’s also all possible by the way, even when you're experiencing tremendous success, getting raises, and working for a great company. You’re not an exception even if you run your own business. It can definitely happen when you've worked for 5, 10, 20, or 30 years and achieved all you ever dreamed of achieving. And, hey it can even come way sooner than that.



Plan Before You Go Go

This time I’d be quoting good ole diva Barbra Streisand that “Some good things never last”... Yup, it’s more often than not that we reach a point where what we do simply doesn't work anymore. Suddenly, the feeling is we're not fulfilled. Saturation point is what I would call it and at that point, you have to ask yourself if it's time to change where you are, or what you do where you are.

Mr. Automatic Millionaire David Bach says he’s not being cavalier by suggesting that you simply quit your job today. He’s suggesting though to think about these five signs he mentioned. It’s important for one to get a quiet time for you to ask yourself the questions. Eventually, talk them over with someone you love. Once you’ve figured out and embraced the fact that the answer is "yes, it's time to quit," then it's time to start planning the "I quit" date.

Try with all your might now to be smart, think it through, and once the decision is made, congratulate yourself for not settling on the status quo. It’s a matter of being brave and stepping outside one’s comfort zone…quitting a job definitely requires this which is not always an easy thing to do. But once you've done it,whoaaaa, you’ll be surprised with the new and exciting opportunities that await.

And on that note, I end with the Clash…
Sing with me if you will...”should I stay or should I go now?”….Darling, you gotta let me know now….hehehehe…

incognito...

kung mag-Filipino kaya ako???para maiba naman dahil maglilinggo ng wika na naman.

salamat nawa at nahimasmasan na ko pagkalabas ko ng edipisyo ng opisina namin.
agad akong tumungo sa aking paboritong pamilihan. paborito sapagkat marami akong nakikitang maaari kong pagkagastusan.sa tingin ko kasi mas marami akong mapagpipilian dito kaysa sa megamall na napaka-lawak naman masyado para ikutin. alalahanin natin, limitado lang aking panahon para tumingin-tingin. ginawa kong umikot na rin dahil sa napipintong "sale" bukas.gustong-gusto ko kasing nakikibahagi sa mga ganitong pagkakataon. may kakaibang kasiyahan ang naidudulot nito sa akin. lalong lalo na nang makita ko na meron pala sa aking kasya sa aking mga damit sa paperdolls...hmmmmh..dumarami ang aking pagpipilian. at hindi ko rin matanto kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. mukhang abala ako sa aking mga kasuotan at pangkaayusan. sa katunayan ay magpapakulay kami ng buhok ng kaibigan ko ngayong sabado.sana naman ay maging maayos.

may isa pa pala akong dapat ipagsaya. ito ay ang pagkakagawa ng aircon ng ayee kong mahal. di ko na kakailanganin na gumastos para sa pagpapagawa. malamang pupunuin ko na lang sya ng gasolina. hay. mahal na mahal ko ang sasakyang iyon kahit ganon yun. salamat sa ama kong kaaway ko pa rin. umasenso ng konti ang relasyon namin kamakailan dahil sa pagpagawa nya ng kotse at pagpaparehistro nito.

oh sya. tatamasain ko muna ang saya ng trabaho ko dito sa istasyon. dito, tunay at naguumapaw ang kasiyahan ko kahit ako lang mag-isa dito.hay...ito ang buhay!!! tagay naman dyan!!!

hey...i don't exist!

It gets really frustrating when you take effort to get to work, try not to be late, do the best you can in the 2 minutes tops you get to do your friggin job and then some people who obviously have their own concerns too, make it all the friggin impossible for you to do your FRIGGIN JOBBBB...GRRRRRR... if the munny weren't easy i would've gone home. i don't think i should be treated this way. but hey, i remain calm. i still go to work, for what it's worth. they are God's children. thank god it's friday tomorrow i wouldn't have to deal with them for the weekend.

sorry???it's unacceptable. i am a PROFESSIONAL. well i try to be--- i may be late a lot of times, but i MAKE it to work and i friggin do my job. i just hope some people who are getting paid good munny would also respect that.

should it always be fun??? throwing this in the air: IS IT ALL FOR FUN???

no wonder idiots multiply like bacteria. see, they're not really born, they're made. and some of us are just about unfortunate that we deal with them. in my case on a weekly basis. 4-5 times a week. i just hope this doesn't rub off on me.

this is precisely the reason why i went back to school. to get away. to dissociate. good thing the other place i work for, well there's no place for idiots right there. unprofessionals aren't welcome.

radio is not all for glory. i spent 4 years in the state university being told that. and after about 8 years in the industry, i am so happy to say that again..

man, i'm really pissed today. i am! this is not the first time this has happened to me. but today isn't a good day. so i am really ticked like hell here. what do they think of themselves?..wait, the better question- do they even think??? they're prolly all to glossed up to even care to think.

i heard someone say "WHO CARES"... i was already cussing earlier in frustration. why??because i friggin had to get up at 4 in the morning and be plastic with my dad to take me to work, and be plastic again to sound as if i'm having a good day... i hate it when i am forced to smile to seem pleasant when i feel so friggin pissed.

some people would say i should be happy cuz it's less work... but hey, i'm friggin more than that. i am so more than that...

i'm not conceited or anything, i just hate the treatment from people who think highly of themselves.

geez. i hate it when im helpless.

seriously, i am not happy with them anymore. i know anybody could get my friggin job anytime. but you know it could be even more tiring to just be warming up the seat and doing nothing. imagine, clocking in as early as 615..and then what? i get to do one friggin report. yey...*pompoms in the air* *fireworks* right.

things i have no control of.

but hey, i can always hand them my discontent in writing a few weeks before hitting the eject button (er, if you know what i mean). not a threat. just a sign of dismay. i used to be happy here. this is not something i look forward to doing anymore. sad, but true. it used to be the people too. but i can see how i dont exist anymore. how okey i would be anyway. less of the blow: how about reassignment? hmmmh. thing is some of the guys here love their stations already. how i wish.

such a disappointment. first i get called for a mistake but hell, do they even ask how i feel when i make a mistake and when people on the other end dont even bother to let you do your work??? sheesh, somebody teach them about RESPECT. that's not even hard to spell.

if it weren't for the easy steady munny.

you know i am evil too...

today is not a good day. oh please. i welcome the fun, but work is not always fun. and right now, i am seriously not having fun. see, im not smiling at all. and i hate it when people take away my smile.

i needa do some shopping to make me forget.

the munny and the hunny... thoughts and rhetorics of the addicting kind

It’s not as if I’m hoping that a relationship would prosper, but earlier on, as I was talking to this entity, I was seriously debating in my head that this person’s really, I dunno- starting to get cute??? Er, these days I have been an easy target of sexual predators. Nope, not that I’m so vavavoom sexy that would leave any guy with a drool pool…let’s just say I entertain and indulge.

It was a Thursday when it first happened. Quite a shock even because I didn’t think that this person was up for it. I really thought that it was all talk no bite. I’m even more surprised at myself. I didn’t see it coming and I really didn’t want it to happen because I might never be able to look at that person the same way again.

The person wanted a call from me. But I had to restrain myself before it could lead to anything more embarrassing than it already is.

Makes me think of Island Boy even more…sad, sad. Well he excused his absence for the next few weeks. He even said that he won’t get mad if I’d find me an immediate replacement to which I said he was too crazy to even think.

On a lighter and much happier and welcome note, I am furthering my shopping addiction by giving in to the call of the Dorothy Perkins/Topshop sale… Last night, I purchased me two jeans and late this morning I got me a belt and a top. So to date, I’ve already blew about 2.3k…I can’t believe I actually spent that much in less than 24 hours. To think I have to pay my phone bill and have the a/c fixed. See why can’t I get my priorities straight???

Oh man. I’m an addict.

shock therapy...

The weather is as fickle as ever. Been raining and been sunny and raining again and sunny again. Ahhhh… but life’s been good anyway. I really couldn’t complain. My family’s doing well. Nobody’s getting really sick despite. Mom’s been recovering well from her sprained arm while my condition has greatly improved. It’s been quite peaceful in the house except for some financial quirks here and there. The building’s almost complete. I can see my room from behind the stacks and stacks of cloth and what-have-you my mom’s been keeping at the third floor. I have been looking for possible designs for the room but I am already sure that green will be color. Since my dad just unplugged the water line to the supposed cr on my room, I told mama I’ll just turn it into a walk-in closet. I really am excited by this. After all these years- finally, a room for myself. A room that I will only share with my things and my creative clutter.

Driving’s been good. I suppose I just really needa work on my parking skills. Plus I needa have the aircon fixed and the clutch too. I had a hard time engaging first gear. Engine stalled about twice but nothing alarming really. I was able to manage and the best part of driving today was that I went through traffic. First time on my own. Hahahahaha… Twas a nice experience though.
Work’s been great too… I’m coming fresh from a workshop at dream… and even if we have negative sentiments about our new bosses handle some things, I would have to agree with my friend from the industry who said that I should appreciate the thought. I might take it for granted but when you really sit down and think about it, there’s hardly any other station that would care as much about their company as much as my bosses seem to really take this seriously. And for that, we have to give them a hand.

More than the things that we picked up from the said workshop, I know it sounds cheesy but I like the fact we got together as a team and just sat down and listen to us… listen to dream and just be kids and just do crazy things in between when the bosses aren’t looking… the feeling is just, I couldn’t even find the words to say it. I am truly lucky to belong to a wonderful bunch. God has been great to me. Definitely a dream team to me…

Moving to my other job…well, I have got to be honest but my passion is not as much as it used to be. I could even say it has waned over the years together reaching its peak when I got word that I of all people, the one who even got a friggin plaque for loyalty, wouldn’t be getting any increase. The job itself is enjoyable. My coworkers are wonderful also but it’s just the company. Imagine, I’ve been here since 2000. I really don’t need any recognition whatsoever, not even a title. But I just need what’s due me. The increase that comes with the tenure and that’s it. Is that too much to ask for in exchange for loyalty? I make it a point to still come to work when every single day, it’s been a struggle. I’m rarely absent though with reasoning summed up as “sayang ang miles!!!”… hahahahah…So what really keeps me here? Well it’s the job..i love the job. I could see myself doing something else, but I couldn’t see myself, not doing this. You get what I mean??? I love the people I work with… the people from the stations and my fellow broadcasters. There’s this sense of fulfillment I get from sitting here, reading from the viewer and delivering the sometimes, er most of the time stupid aobs which make us some munny..

Oh, on a lighter note, I just gave in to a craving. I wanted me some cheese muffin from Fig and even if I don’t have much munny, I still managed to get me a cuppy cake. I’m also excited for tomorrow. There’d be a sale at my fave shops, Topshop and Dorothy Perkins. I already set my eyes on that really nifty denim number from Dotty perks… I’m also uber excited to get me new belts and a pretty shirt… oh I just hope I could get in tomorrow. If not, I’m gonna faint… Bwehehehe…

In a not so welcome development, or perhaps something for the kilig department, I did something with this dj from another station. I’m not gonna go into details but let’s just say, I saw a different side of him that I actually thought was good, even nice. Pretty nice actually that I might actually end up either dreaming or dreading about it…Hala!!!

I’m all too sleepy now. ..still have a coupla rounds then we call it a night.

shoe stopper...

this is the first time i'll ever wear this new acquisition of mine.and dang, it hurts so much i had to give it a rest by the afternoon..back in my dupes now... argh!!!

in my shoes...

Your Pretty Pink Shoes Are

Marc by Marc Jacobs

What Pretty Pink Shoes Should You Wear?

Soundtracking our lives...

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
---How to Save a Life, The Fray---

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Wonder and wonder some more...but things are so much better now.Way way way better...

what's up dawggg!!!

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