Of lesser beings and more...

I am the non-confrontational type but I would be more than ready to defend myself should the situation call for it. I guess this is how I’s built. I am firm and strong with my resolutions that I could even come across as unreasonable. But of course who in the right mind would admit to being unreasonable at that given point in time???

Just before the week ended last week, I was feeling bad about something that shouldn’t really bother me.

You know, people make mistakes, and I can’t reiterate it even more. Nobody’s perfect. We’re mere mortals! Clichés are clichés because they’ve been proven to be true. And I couldn’t emphasize on it any more than I already have admitted to being at fault for making a friggin mistake on air…

Some people have made such a big deal out of it. I suppose, people who have less capacities to intellectualize the meaning of being human…of making a friggin mistake do not at all deserve my time. They’ve already shown their true colors so why should expect any thing more from them??? I don’t really wanna make such a big deal out of it, but it’s them who have been testing my patience. I mean, I really don’t need any praises from them. Cuz to my thinking, praises and criticisms coming from the same people are pretty much the same. And I really don’t need any of them. I mean, it’s not going to make me a better person so why should I even brother??? That’s the thing though, it’s bothering me because I know it was a mistake and people made such a big deal out of it when in fact I’m the one to bear the brunt. It’s the “Samantha” and not the friggin company that made a mistake. And this person, who just thinks about making sale and making the deal forgot about being human as well. I really don’t get it. Is that person really better than me??? When I don’t really think that that person can actually fill my shoes. Should we trade places, I believe in my heart that I could do the job that that person holds, but the better question is, can that person do my job??? I don’t wanna throw my weight around. I mean, even being in this company longer than they have and being in an industry that is more unforgiving, I think I have more than what they see me as… Geez. I really feel that his job is starting to be a job. After six years I never thought it would be. But when I come to think about it some more, it’s just the people I work with that make it more difficult.

I’m prepared for anything today. Ready to take on anything. Even the darned battery of lab tests I’ve to undergo today, yessss, bring it on!!!