the ballad of a forlorn girl

suddenly, an emotional roller coaster... why she took the ride is beyond her knowledge.

people expect her to be smart all the time. she was able to keep up for the most part of her life. but she'd fall short at one point. more like at one aspect. more like when she falls in love.

is she really at fault? she tends to blame herself for allowing her to be where she is.

she has fallen in love more than once. maybe twice or thrice in this lifetime.

but she's still alone....she's awful at the game. she's too generous about giving love.

she wants to get a hold of herself. she wants to stop taking that ride...that emotional roller coaster ride.

the trip's been draining her energy. sucking the life from her.

what should she do? she has no clue. forever embattled.forever bamboozled.

she just wants to have somebody hold her hand while she figures out everything.

it's hard enough that she's confused. but she feels that that's not even half the difficulty of being alone and pretending that she's not...

is she going to be OK? she has to, and she pretty much hopes to..even prays and secretly wishes.

once again, her heart takes the beating...but this forlorn girl feels it's way better than not feeling at all. 

she wipes all the tears from her face. tries on a smile for a change...and secretly hopes that this person that she's so full of love for will never give up on her. she's not asking him to love him as much as she does...she knows that that will never happen.

but she's grateful. ever so thankful for his time. and patience...if she could only ask for more of those, she just might survive this. 

until then, forlorn girl.