Monday, October 12, 2009

upping the stakes...

I just realized that the deal I made with myself isn't as clear cut as I would hope it to be... So lemme just say that twitter doesn't count in the deal. So as it is, I have til 12midnight tomorrow til we can truly say that it's a done deal. Yeah? Oh well.

If only he's bad looking and has bad sense of humor..if only he'd be full of himself..if only he'd be dumb...if only he can't speak well...if only oh if only...then things would have been so much easier.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

i would if i could...

thinking about B again makes my tummy go bonkers. wondering what he's up to and where he's at right now. B doesn't need me. but I'm hoping he would. eventually... would you rather be needed or wanted? if it's not too much, I'd like to be both, thank you very much.



Saturday, October 03, 2009

weather or not...sunshine after the storm...

I'd have to agree with my friend that the recent bout with Ondoy, er Ketsana gave most everyone the opportunity to see kindness in people...And I am so happy to have seen that too.

Two of my best buds in the world were greatly affected by the storm. Messing up their beautiful homes and damaging even their most prized possessions. But amidst all that rubble and the stench that the waters have left, there were so many invaluable life lessons to always look into for strength and inspiration.

I'm so lucky that we were spared. Somehow. I've already had my share of storms about a couple of months back. Like my friends, I wept, doubted, questioned and wept again. Felt helpless and disoriented at one point, and yet, I managed... Eventually, we'll all manage. With time the only thing left to be questioned...

Meanwhile, I pray for strength and for hope for all the people who have suffered and are continually suffering as I lay here resting comfortably in my room and blog away...

I pray for the day that they'll be able to smile again... the day that they begin rebuilding their lives... I pray for the day that they'll be out and about and ready to catch all the curve balls that life throws at them. I pray that I'd be witness to more acts of kindness and bravery and love...

I pray that everyone would pick up more than a thing or two from this harrowing experience. That this one will make them stronger, and so much better...