handing in the inevitable...

I'm not sure if it was the smartest thing to do, but it sure felt like it was the right thing to do...
I wrote off my so called passion. I tendered my resignation from the station I thought would be nice enough to be my home. But like everybody else, we are bound to make mistakes. And it's something I'd want to believe will make me stronger.

I so love this job but if it would mean losing myself in the process, I feel that this is the best thing that I could ever do for myself at this point.

Nobody dies from a heartbreak, right? But I'd rather be heartbroken than be truly miserable like most people there. I mean, come on, do I honestly think that it was a perfect world out there? Each one has their own gripe about each other, which if I may say, am not so used to. And I don't have any plans of getting used to it, thank you very much! However, I feel sorry for them. I feel that the station has a lot of potential. Only and if only people there would learn to acknowledge each other's strengths and weaknesses and work for a common goal. Which is a no-brainer really, but I keep on forgetting that we're talking egos as well...

But who am I to tell these people what to do. Who am I to even share my sentiments about the industry. I'm sure they wouldn't take it from someone like me. Sure I graduated from UP ..sure I took Broadcast Communication. Sure I auditioned for my first job and didn't have to kiss any one's ass in the process... Sure I was pretty consistent in my performance in whatever program format I had to adhere to... sure I had a stint on local tv... Gosh...

But those are things of the past...and so is my stint in that neighborhood. I just hope that I get to keep something. Like the friendships. But even that, I begin to doubt. And that's pretty crazy, right? It would feel really awkward, really strange at times. I even opted not to report for them anymore. It just feels a little off. I'd much rather steer clear than create any more ripples or what-not.

I can't wait for the day that I'd laugh this one out if and when I tell about my story there. In the meantime, I was told that it's okey to feel bad. I have every right to mourn at this point. There's no telling if I could still go back to radio. And even if I did, would I have enough passion to fight for it?

In any case, I don't wanna burn bridges. There is a strong possibility that I'd be going back...